大笨蛋...

好久没上来，写写东西，抒发心情了。
每次上来，一定都是有事发生厚...哈哈。没办法，当一个人的时候，真的有好多好多话，而你永远不懂向谁说起...


亲爱的，你过的好吗？是否没有了我，日子更快乐，轻松了呢？

亲爱的，你有没有，爱上别人而慢慢不爱我了呢？

亲爱的，有没有，再随便跟女生说话，给女生电话号码呢？是否，很久没有那么自由了吧？

我那亲爱的，我...你还在乎吗、还是放弃了我呢？你还会不会，去问问我的消息呢？你的心，还爱不爱呢？有没有想念过我？

我最近，过得好累好累...我好怪你，怎么就丢下了我呢...可是，这并不是你的错，只是...你...不爱了...是不是...

我好怕，12月的到来...好怕、你真的...不属于我...我永永远远的，失去你了。可是我，还那么爱你呢...怎么可以。

我不想接受，有一天...我们会完全的不再爱对方了。有一天，你的新娘...不是我...你孩子的妈咪，不是我...你的支柱，不会再是我...

我呢，我怎么办？怎么办？我不敢再爱任何人了...我知道，即使跟别人在一起...心里却想着你...我不想让任何人，成为你的替代品。

我用尽全力...把你留下来...为什么，就是不理我...为什么，还可以爱...却偏偏不要了。

我多么希望，你会留下來。但是，你还爱吗...怎么可以这样呢...你不是应该想办法，让我们的感情，不会断吗...你怎么...放弃了。

说好的呢？怎么了...你打算跟别人...完成了吗.我只是你生命里的，一小部分吗...再也成为不了你世界的重心了吗？

你要我如何，你才能...相信...我真的很爱你呢？你才可以，不要放手呢？

我现在真的好想好想你，每天都要到面子书上关注你...才可以知道你的心情，你的状况、你的一切。

你知道，我为什么，不说，不找，不信息，不吵了呢...很简单...因为我再怎么做...你都不会了解...你也执着着我不属于你，执着我们再也不会在一起。

我每天，只能祈求我们到最后会再在一起...祈求，你会过得健康快乐。

大笨蛋，你真的...很想要我找别人在一起吗...真的吗...可是，对不起...这点我真的做不到...你可以，跟别人在一起...我会笑着祝福，说没关系。真的...我没关系...

我要你快乐...好吗.我知道，我放不下。我知道，我还是会在多年以后，仍然对你感情不变.我知道， 你又要笑我傻了对不对！笑我笨蛋对不起...哈哈...我知道，外面还有很多女生...你可以那么想...让你自己快乐...哈哈，我也知道...外面有很多男生...但是...我给不了...他们渴望的真心，真爱了。感觉也不一样了。也许，我不想...骗谁...

我希望...若到了以后...你还有感情，感觉的话...相信我，永远爱你。真的。该不会，你连这，也不相信了吧...我的心永远为你打开...

你说着要顺其自然，但是...顺其自然不会让我们彼此的信箱，多出一封信。再顺其自然，也要有个人...主动。

我要的，怎么可能...会是个王子｡我要的，只是个平凡，爱我...不会放开我的人。

致：我最要好的朋友兼背叛我的人

我真的，没有想到，我竟然会有一天，会被我最好的朋友背叛。 绝交，你们会比较开心吗？我对你们有什么不满，我都不会像你们今天对我那样。我从来都没有生气你背叛我的事。你不爽，也不需要，像这样。你们要孤立我是吗，那自便。 我们，就要连朋友都不是。我们好不容易和好，你就要这样结束我们的友情。从来都不曾听你说我们哪里不合,就算我们有不合，我们也是一下就解决和好。现在，你宁愿这样解决。我们真的是朋友吗？你对我们的友情，是真的吗？
我觉得，我现在跟你讲什么，你都要跟全世界讲吧？我应该向你道谢，让我知道，我一直以来，都没有真的朋友。 还有，一个人，始终都有过去。 但如果现在，你还要拿我的过去来看待我这个人的话，那对不起，是你失败。 你是个永远都摆脱不了过去的人。我对待你们，我对得起自己良心。但你现在要这样子做，你对得起自己的良心吗？我极度怀疑XX 的话："我们都是她最好的朋友"

你们的结论：朋友是拿来背叛的。

My conclusion : eff you guys.

写给他的一篇文章...

在我需要一个人的时候…需要人陪的时候…不被引起注意的时候…是你，陪伴我，注意到我这个永远都不被关注的人…

我总以为，你不过是颗刚好划过的…帮我实现了愿望后就会离开…的流星…

但老天爷，在我需要一个人的时候.让我第一个想到的人是你...

在我害怕的时候，想到你我就很自然的就放松心情...

就算我上一秒才刚看到你...这一秒我又开始想你了...

在我我需要依靠的时候，遇见你...
在我需要安全感的时候，遇见你...
更在我需要温暖快乐的时候，碰见了你...


我知道我已经爱上这颗流星了吧...
而且是个永远都得不到的流星...

他给了我放弃的理由...
但我也却给不了自己执著的理由...

等待并不苦，
苦的是...
没有结果的等待...

不是我爱等...
而是...我真的想证明...
我真的真的好喜欢他...
多苦都愿意...

我从没为一个人...
像我为他空空等待了快4个月...

不是爱当傻瓜,
而是傻瓜...都很容易给自己不放弃的借口...

我喜欢他,所以我想见到他...
但因为他不喜欢我...我必须离开

我喜欢他，所以我想跟他分享我生活中的一切...
但因为他不喜欢我，所以我只好空空白白的过每一天...

我喜欢他，所以想认识他...真真正正的认识...想要他告诉我他没跟任何人说的事...
但因为他不喜欢我，我只好当个在他身边的小草...永远都接近不了他...

我喜欢他，所以我不只想当一个只是暧昧的朋友...但因为他不喜欢我...所以我只好被逼当一个普通朋友...

就因为我喜欢他，我想要在他心中有个位置...但因为他不喜欢我...所以我跟他的其他朋友有什么两样...

我从不要求什么...
不想奢望什么...
我从不轻言开口...

不是爱胡思乱想...而是担心...
不是爱烦，而是想知道这一秒的你是否可好...

多么害怕，你要求我放弃...
多么害怕，你告诉我有些事勉强不得...

我不喜欢你的客气...因为我知道那是我应该做的...但你一客气起来，我就会去想那是我不必做的...

我不喜欢你的道歉，因为你又有让我放弃的理由...

有时候，就算我生气了...只要你一开口说话...我又像冰融化了...

有时候，就算我吃醋...我也会问自己我凭什么...而且我懂我的你，异性缘本来就很好...所以也没那么容易吃醋...

我知道有时候,是我自己想太多...
明知道不可能...却还傻傻抱着期待...

我在每次想撒娇时,怕你逃离所以也只好笑笑而过...

每次我都很想跟你聊个不停...但却在开口的时候...少了勇气...

我受伤了，我也不敢让你知道...就算我自己明白...你怎样也不会担心...但却还是要不让你看见受伤的自己...

我有多么多的原因想告诉你...我想跟你在一起...也许你觉得我不认真,但我知道我是全心全意的付出...不为什么，只为你...



你的越不想伤害,把我伤得更重...


若不想伤害就请你好好珍惜...


When a girl tells you how much she miss you , trust me... No one can miss you more than she do ;)


"I'd rather die tomorrow than live a hundred years without knowing you."
- John smith

28/8/2011

为什么，为什么我是世界上最不公平的人??

我不懂...为什么，我的努力永远都比不过那些不必任何努力就可以成功的人！

我不服，我永远都要成为弱者。。。

我不甘心，全世界眼里就只有她...

我不喜欢别人说我幸运，因他们不了解我背后的努力...

我的人生，怎么就觉得没出路了呢？

也许我永远都成为不了我要的..

我的目标，永远都会落地...

我也许是这世上多出来的人..

我永远都比不上他吧...

再怎么努力，怎么哭，怎么笑，怎么做...都是废的...

我的梦，破裂了吧？

不可能会实现了吧？

For the broken hearted

This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this.

Im afraid of losing you.

I’m not someone with over the top confidence. I get jealous when I see others try to talk to you in a flirty way. I often catch myself second guessing every situation in the worst way possible. It’s a scary thought knowing that there are millions of people out there who have a lot more to offer than me, whether it’s looks, personality or the way they present themselves. I’m selfish, I want you all to myself and I can’t help it.

U smile - Justin Bieber xoxo

Oh
Yeah
Mmmm

I'd wait on you forever and a day
Hand and foot
Your world is my world
Yeah
Ain't no way you're ever gon' get
Any less than you should
Cause baby
You smile I smile (oh)
Cause whenever
You smile I smile
Hey hey hey

Your lips, my biggest weakness
Shouldn't have let you know
I'm always gonna do what they say (hey)

If you need me
I'll come running
From a thousand miles away
When you smile I smile (oh whoa)
You smile I smile
Hey

Baby take my open heart and all it offers
Cause this is as unconditional as it'll ever get
You ain't seen nothing yet
I won't ever hesitate to give you more

Cause baby (hey)
You smile I smile (whoa)
You smile I smile
Hey hey hey
You smile I smile
I smile I smile I smile
You smile I smile
Make me smile baby

Baby you won't ever work for nothing
You are my ins and my means now
With you there's no in between
I'm all in
Cause my cards are on the table
And I'm willing and I'm able
But I fold to your wish
Cause it's my command
Hey hey hey

You smile I smile (whoa)
You smile I smile
Hey hey hey
You smile I smile
I smile I smile I smile
You smile I smile
Oh

You smile I smile

You smile I smile